PMS'ing and Youngins isn't helping.

So I’m PMS’ing real bad! And I hate it when I PMS. I just feel like the Wicked Witch of the West or is it East? Anyway, with the fact that I’m feisty already, PMS’ing on top of it is just plain ugly as far as I’m concerned. It’s just not fair we women go thru this. Plus I feel bad when I feel this way- as if I’m sinning. I always pray that God to forgive me sha. I used to think I was a freak until I realized that other women went thru this. In the past, there were times when I’d cry. Lol!! Just cry for no reason. Now, I’m moody, upset, angry, and feel frustrated. Subconsciously it’s probably becos things I’m going thru at this time is getting to me- as some of you might remember I said there were things that I was going thru. I’m so stressed out that my hair is breaking BADLY!!!!! How long can one hold on for or continue to hope for God’s intervention. And NOOOOOOOO I’m not referring to man/bobo/husband!!!! Thank u very much. :)

So a few weeks ago my good friend- TDO and I were chatting on MSN. I was chatting to her about something bothering me when I kinda figured out that her bobo was with her. So I was like let’s chat later cos it was apparent dude most likely was reading our conversation or wanted to. My thing is- as my friend u can share what ever u want with ur man, but when it comes to my own issues- don’t let me ever find out I was ur bedroom topic for u and ur bobo. Ladies need to know where to draw the line. But TDO I believe is cool- she won’t do that. Anyway, that is how her bobo called me. Let’s call him Mike. So Mike calls me (he’s with TDO) and is like why am I in a bad mood. Obviously my defenses are up cos I’m like I don’t recall telling u that- it’s TDO I told that. Anyway dude went on and on and to be honest my mind wasn’t there cos I really wanted to talk to my girl and as far as I was concerned he was interfering. Lol!!! Anyway, I don’t know how the topic got to me dating. He asked if I was ‘talking’ to anyone at the moment i.e. is there anyone showing interest in me. And I was like no, there isn’t. Only for him to say, a babe who doesn’t have a guy chasing her- means something is wrong with her. Egba mi- se pe there is something wrong with me?!!!! I asked him please tell me what cld possibly be wrong with me, but he cldn’t say. His conclusion was that he has to interact with me to figure out what was wrong. I don’t know what irked me most- the fact he chatted smack or the fact that TDO kept quiet. Anyway, I used to root for the guy, but after that conversation my love for him decreased. So question is; are babes meant to always have an admirer cos I don’t always have one. And if not- does that mean there is something wrong with them?

Let me talk about Youngins. I know I keep saying that I will, but there was no……..I can't think of the right word but there was no urge, no need, no want, no……….. But now I feel I might as well. So I call him Youngins cos he’s 13months younger than I am. I met him at my Church. Look wise- not my type. I don’t find him attractive and at same time he’s not a turn off. Infact, it’s only his complexion that emmmm……… I don’t know but dude is yellow!! Ok not yellow as in omo pu pa. But I love me my BLACK chocolate. O yeh baby (saying it with a husky voice)! Lol! Shona (SHONA VIXEN) u’ve seen how PennS looks. Lol!! I have a phobia for yellow guys- well more like I have a phobia of the seeing a yellow prick. The thot terrifies me!!! I’ve never seen one before. Afrobabe have you seen one before? lmho!

Story about Youngins. I’m 30 this year. I want to get married. And I don’t feel ashamed for letting folks around me know that I want to get married- I’m not a spring chicken. But Youngins aint thinking about marriage anytime soon- which I don’t see anything wrong with. But as far I’m concerned that just means that he aint the one so no point wasting my emotions on someone who we apparently do not have the same aims or goals relationship wise. Plus I need to date someone crazy about me. I’m in no rush- since I’ve waited this long- no need to settle. Dude has to be crazy about me. I don’t know if Youngins truly likes me or is only interested becos he can't understand why I’m not all over him like other babes have been in the past; therefore I’m a challenge. He’s cute tho. But na fine boy I won chop? He’s even lost weight so not looking bad- me I like lepa.

Anyway the big ‘comma’ about Youngins is that he has a daughter who is only gonna turn 1 next month. His baby mother wasn’t a random shag. It was a babe he was in a relationship with. According to him he isn’t interested in getting back with her cos as of when the daughter was conceived they had broken up and it was a one off shag. Rumor has it that she tried trapping him; unfortunately that back fired on her. To be honest I don’t have a problem marrying a guy who already has a kid; but there mustn’t be any drama from baby mama and I must be sure babe is over him and him over her. His baby mama is still hoping that they’ll get back together (rumor has it). RED FLAG!!! He says he’ll have a problem if his baby mama has a man cos he doesn’t want another man involved in his daughter’s life. Another RED FLAG!!!! My advice to him on that was that he might as well get back with his ex cos he shouldn’t expect her to remain single for the rest of her life pining after him. Not only that- me and him were having a heated discussion yesterday and dude called me her name!!!! WTF!!!! I’m not his gf so I’m not bothered but what if I was? But his excuse for doing so is becos he talks to his baby mama very regularly- apparently they are planning the baby’s b.day party. Now, am I retarded for not understanding why he feels the need to talk to his baby mama everyday? In fact he called me her name in 2 separate conversations. To be honest Youngings loves his daughter to bits and is very involved in her life. Based on all this story story I am not even gonna bother thinking about dating him. But do you guys think I’m being too hasty for not even entertaining the possibility of me and him dating?