PennS broke up with me!

PennS literally broke up with me within 2 weeks of our first date. Lol!!! Before I go into the dry details, let me apologize for not posting an update till now. I’ve been hanging out a lot with PennS and I’ve had some job issues I’ve been dealing with.

So as ‘yawl’ remember, I fled the first time I went to PennS’s apartment. As a matter of fact I haven't been there since. This coming Saturday will be my 1st time going since Thanksgiving- he’s cooking lunch/dinner for me. :)

It’s been 21 days since Thanksgiving, and I’ll say PennS and I have not seen each other for a total of about only 4 or 5 days withing these 21 days. We literally see each other all the time. I won't deny the fact that I like PennS A LOT, but unfortunately I quickly found out that it can never lead to anything serious- he’s Muslim. It took a while for him to understand why as a Christian it’s impossible for me to date him. From day one, he had made it clear to me he wanted something serious with me- and still maintains that but boy was I shocked when I got a text message and an email response from him after I had suggested we continue to hang out. [Btw, my tenants had pissed me off big time prior to this conversation. Another thing is that I have this new friend…. I’ll call him Youngin. Youngin is Nigerian- I just recently met him and we kinda hang out. As of now there is no gist there.]

Me: So after yesterday’s conversation, are we still gonna see each other?

Him: I think I should let you hang out with your Nigerian friends since I’m Senegalese and Muslim. I thot that those things were really were no longer a big deal.

Me: WTF, I never ever said I had a problem with you being Senegalese it’s the fact that you’re Muslim- I can't date a Muslim…….I am so upset right now cos u know i dont have a problem with u being Senegalese.
But you KNEW I cldnt date a Muslim before making a bloody pass at me!!!

Him: U know sleeping around with girls is the easiest thing you can do but sometimes u feel more that that.
Him: You r the one telling that u don't want to date a Muslim guy, if we cannot date what should be the reason to hang out together? I‘ll get emotionally attached to you while on ur end it doesn't bother u since u said u don't get close to people that quick.
Plus u r actually talking to a Nigerian guy, and I cannot share u with anybody else even though we r not dating.

Me: What Nigerian guy am I talking to? Or u mean I’m dating a Nigerian guy? Cos I have a lot of Nigerian friends. And before you came along- there were Nigerian guys who liked me- but guess what I did not date them, is NOT dating them, and will not be dating them. Wha’ u being mean for?

Him: I am not being mean; I am just trying to do the right thing. Do u think I want to stop hanging with u? No I don’t, I like being around you and everything that I say I mean. Yesterday I told u I wanted to still hang out with U and I still want to.

Aren't u hanging out with ur Nigerian friend from UBS? From my understanding the purpose of hanging out with someone is to build up something.

I like u, and still want to see u, but as I said yesterday I just don't want to mess around with girls anymore- I don’t want anything casual.

Me: Oooooooohhhhh my bad. My Nigerian friend -Youngin and I hanging out does not mean we’re trying to build up anything. We go to the same Church, he has a car, I don’t have a car. He takes me to Church. He’s a year younger than I am.

Why didn’t you just ask rather than jump to conclusions. I just met him very recent- like a week ago. Now if he likes me- I do not know but he hasn’t indicated so. Even if he does- not a big deal- I’m a big girl and can handle it. I’m not interested in him- at least for now. I can't be interested in more than one person at the same time. I don’t roll like that.

As for the whole relationship thing…………. I do see where u’re coming from. But still doesn’t mean I have to be excited about it.

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH, see dis dude, breaking up with me even before we start a relationship and before having sex!!! En dey craze?! Lol!!!

Fast forward to today- conversations with PennS has gotten waaaay better. He’s still quiet and shy- that’s his nature but he opens up more and we actually have a laugh and goof around when we hang out. We go out on dates regularly and he recently bought me a sweater dress- will take picture and post one of these days. But I know what you guys are thinking, I need to end this since we can't get serious, and I will. It’s one of my New Year’s resolutions. We’ve only seen each other once this week so I’m beginning to put a gap between us. But as you all know sey I be awoof- I too like food- I’m going over to his place this Saturday to eat free food- peanut stew with goat meat and rice or couscous (spelling?). YEAH!!! How I for resist dat one naow? And he knows perfectly well tht if he makes a pass at me again- I will FLEE!!! I’ve warned him already. Lol!!! But meeehhnn, his butt just keeps calling me. Tempting me, daring me, and luring me. I was on the train to work this morning and that was all I could see- him walking up the escalators and me standing behind. God help me! Lol!!

So you guys go ahead and decide- do you think I eventually broke my celibacy or am I still celibate?

Anyway, i'm off to Elizabeth town next week till next year. So if you guys dont hear from me- Merry Xmas and a Happy New Year. SHONA VIXEN i shall be seeing u soon. lol!!!